Am I the only mama who thinks the pressure of childbirth blew out a few brain cells?
Yes, labour.
I've never pushed so hard in my life as I did with these two kids in our nest.
I remember the midwife holding up a mirror (as a visual for 'pushing blind' through a required epidural) and all I could see was my beet red face about to pop off and fly around the room like a balloon.
Yes, I think I've lost more brain cells since having kids.
I feel like I've forgotten so much:
* how light they felt as newborns.
* what a good night's sleep looks like.
* where my wedding band disappeared to.
* what my husband already repeated to me five times.
* what the kids looked like before this moment.
(I look back at old pictures... like this one of Azriel and I, two years ago, and I don't recognise that sweet funny face of hers)!
*I forget the funny things she says... so I write them here (or Facebook!).
* how I used to dress before 'fashion for latch'n'.
* what Ben and I ever did together before kids.
I also forget how tiny my heart felt before this moment.
It's been stretching and straining to new depths each day of their little lives here.
I never want to forget that.
How much this love erases all the craziness and just sees their beauty.
brain.less, heart.full
Mel ;o)
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P.S: Note to self ~ that first 'cuddle' shot represents Azriel's most recent obsession of having her Daddy "make her smaller" by squishing her down... so she can run over and snuggle with me like a little baby. Afterward, she runs back to Ben to stretch her "big again".
I die from the cuteness!
brain.less, heart.full
Mel ;o)
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P.S: Note to self ~ that first 'cuddle' shot represents Azriel's most recent obsession of having her Daddy "make her smaller" by squishing her down... so she can run over and snuggle with me like a little baby. Afterward, she runs back to Ben to stretch her "big again".
I die from the cuteness!
