Confession: I used to think I was pretty 'together' 'swell'... alright, a downright 'fantastic' person.
Then, I got married.
Then, I had children.
Nothing quite holds the mirror of 'reality' up to my face as much as these factors.
In their eyes I see where I fall short so often... as a wife.. as a mother.
No, no... this isn't a woe-is-me post... I'm trying to say how important they are for helping me grow and find a better balance in my day.life.heart.soul.
This guy. My ben.
He knows me better than I do it seems.
This week's example:
I was all amped up to take part in a fast-approaching craft show.
(Trying to test how quickly I could 'bounce back' from having a newborn and toddler in the nest... and still pump out my crafts for sale).
Ben was graciously sceptical.
We had a lengthy discussion about the feasibility of such a venture currently.
I believe he may have used the words "manic"... "obsessed" ..."fabric and projects all over the house"...
Yes, my creative side is like a wild dog that wants to tear into a project and toss it everywhere.
(This blog is one way I can 'toss it a bone' by giving it a creative outlet for the day).
My artsy side was having a hissy fit.
"I wannnnt to do this show"!
"I just need an hour a day to craft... really"!
But, he knows me. He knows how it will consume my every spare moment.
Then he said it.
"We all have our passions.hobbies.interests, babe.
But, we chose these kids... they're our priority".
Bam.
For being the cougar in this relationship, he trumps me with his wisdom!
I knew he was right.
But the artist in me was still trying to bark for a mistrial...' we need to reconsider the evidence'.
I needed to leash it in.
I needed an epiphany... and it came:
"I want to err on the side of presence"!
I declared.
I want to 'err' on the side of being more present with my children right now... then on trying to prove I can fill a craft table.
Years down the road, they won't remember the cool 'stuff' their mama made...
they'll remember if I was present or not.
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**Yet again, a disclaimer: I'm not saying I need to give up being creative.. I'm still crafting at a 'sane' pace (and aiming for a fall/winter show hopefully). I think its a good example to be crafting with/amongst the kids.... not to the exclusion of them.
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"To err is human;
to forgive, divine"
Alexander Pope
I'm so grateful His divine hand uses these souls to guide me in grace.
How do you find your balance?
Seeking to be creatively present,
Mel ;o)