confessions (of a mama). part.19

 As a child we tend to think we have it all figured out.
No need to be taught, 'thanks Mom, but I got this...' we would confidently assert.. and proceed to do a nose-dive off the bicycle we were convinced we could conquer.

Fast forward to teen years.
Now we're desperate to pretend we have it all together.
That we get it... (although we're less sure of what 'it' is now).

By the time we're an adult we've gotten pretty good at the facade.
Putting our best confident face forward.
Not accepting help from anyone because, "thanks.. but I've got this" is still our delusion.

And then you have kids.
They see that ridiculous shroud of pride you've knit for yourself over these years.
That awkward garment that you've stretched over your gaping chasms of insecurity.
They see all the loose ends hanging out... and like pulling on a knit stitch... they pull.
And you, you are undone.

It feels like torture at first.
Being shown your own raw, broken self.
It feels like failure at first.
Being a mess, instead of a model for your children.

But this unravelling is actually a gift.
It shows us the path of humility.
Because we're all a tangled tapestry.
We're caught in this 'stitch in time'.... unable to see the final creation.
All we see is a handful of frayed strands,
a trail behind us of lost tempers and tears.
Be encouraged.
The tapestry is still in progress.

Stitch love,
sew grace.

Forget trying to show the world you 'have it all together'.
Discard the "thanks, but I've got this..." responses.
Confident arrogant boasts like that do more to repel than attract people.

 Humility is a much more beautiful heirloom to stitch for your children.
Don't let the 'sorrys' be trapped in your throat.
Kneel down...
to the One Who made you - and the ones He made through you...
...and offer that brokenness.

You will be sandwiched with love on both sides.
 The strands will weave together.
Brokenness and  beauty will be your knit and purl stitch.
Trust your tapestry in to those hands.
"And I am certain that God, who began the good work within you, will continue his work until it is finally finished on the day when Christ Jesus returns."
Philippians 1:6

a tangled tapestry,
a work in progress,
Mel ;o) 

1 comment:

  1. Heather Anderson29 April 2014 at 17:12

    I want to know more about this handicraft! Did you make it? Buy it somewhere? Do you just give Azi a needle and yarn and let her do her thing?


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