I've been feeling overwhelmed lately.
Which is rare for me... I'm pretty chill about most things in life, usually.
Call it a convergence of all those issues that face most of us on any given day:
relationships. finances. parenting. time-management. finances. cleaning/purging the house etc.
I've even been feeling
extra neurotic lately... you know, that 'special' part of the female brain that says everything you're doing just isn't enough. All your hard work just isn't enough. All the attempts at good-parenting, good-friending, good-wife'ing... just isn't enough.
So, since I was set on having such a big.fat.pity-party.. I figured the best step was to make cupcakes! (My daughter even said 'happy birthday'.. to no one in particular).
Nothing like chasing the gloomies out of my head, with a yummy chocolate.orange.fudge.coffee cupcake stuffed into my face.
(This is the part where I probably start to sound like an emotional-eater..).
For what it's worth, it did make me feel better.
Life is a beautiful. messy. wonderful. painful. glorious. torturous. full journey isn't it?
Sometimes I see the big picture of it all and get overwhelmed.
Sometimes I see all the itty bitty details and get.. overwhelmed.
God grant me the eyes to see every moment - good or bad - as just that... a mere moment.
These too, shall pass.
May I simply savour the sweetness of the souls I share these days with.
The delight in a cupcake together.
The warmth of a home.
And, be overwhelmed by His grace that carries me.
Oh, and the fact that we got Azriel on the potty in time today!
That was pretty great. Gross, but great.
That is all.