When you choose the path of love, it can be a wild journey.
When you have kids... it's a road marked "NO EXIT".
For it will never end... me, being their mama.
They, being our children.
This love that grows like their small bodies...
...stronger, bigger, wilder every day.
But parenting is a tough path.
There are pot holes and bumps along the way...
A mother's impatience,
A child's tantrum,
Both in need of much grace... and, correction.
Selfish love desires personal comfort.
Self-less love seeks to serve.
Every day my heart gets pulled in this tug-o-war.
Selfishly, I want to pull the covers over my head and stay in bed longer.
Self-lessly, I know my daughter wants to start the day.
I want a long bath, time to craft, freedom to come and go as I please.
But my children come first... (and that's a good thing)!
We keep trying to get that one moment in the day:
"me time"... where you can do what YOU want, not being responsible for anyone else.
Like a carrot before the donkey.. we're hungry to grab it.
But what I really need to wrap my tiny brain around is this:
+pursuing selfish desires don't satisfy like they promise to.
+sacrificially loving others... brings a much deeper joy.
In giving, we receive.
In sacrifice, we gain.
"Greater love has no one than this, that one lay down their life for their friends [or family]"
Sometimes I look back, and wonder how we even got this far.
I'm grateful that this path of love comes one step at a time.