mess.clean.repeat.

Life is messy isn't it?

Clean up all the toys... and two seconds later they're helter-skelter across the floor again.

Get the laundry washed.folded.sorted... and then discover a new mountain of dirty clothes.

Wash the stack of dishes... and there's a tower growing in the sink again.

Promise to be more patient... and one frustration sets you off.

Try to stay positive under pressure... but instead vortex into a pity-party.

Seek to model love and grace... realise you're weaker than imagined.

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Life can be overwhelming sometimes.

You just want a moment to get 'off the ride'... to jump from the crazy carousel that keeps spinning in futility it seems.

Or, to echo the words of Ecclesiastes:

"..when I surveyed all that my hands had done and what I had toiled to achieve,

everything was meaningless, a chasing after the wind"

Ecclesiastes 2:11

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When I get up each morning, take two steps forward.. and fall three steps back, 

it can get hard to trust that growth is happening. 

I just want to crumple into a ball and not try again.

But... that's just not helpful to anyone is it?

I need to step out in faith.

One faltering step.misstep.at a time. 

It's like every night when I face this moment.

A stack of dirty dishes...

I want to ignore them,

they seem overwhelming...

I want ease, comfort, relaxation.

But deep down I know that they aren't going away... and the longer I don't 'tend' to the mess... the bigger it will get.
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Like any mess really.
Unforgiveness.
Resent.
Worry.
Ignoring the problem just makes it fester.
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So I wash them.

One dish at a time.

And the world seems brighter.

God, take these messes in my heart.

Wash them.

Let me shine your grace.

Mess. Clean. Repeat.

Mel ;o)