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A good reminder for me today. As I've posted before, I'm not a keen cleaner. I have a love hate relationship with my kitchen sink. I try.. I really do.. to keep a positive attitude about the daily messes. Today is no exception. You know how it goes.. the tasks of cleaning the home were looming ahead of me. I had procrastinated long enough. It was time to do a real blitz... washing floors.vacuuming.tidying kind of blitz. For how much I avoid a big clean it actually does feel great in the end.
There is a distinct reward that comes from physical labour.
There's also that oh-so-satisfying joy of seeing results. That floor was dingy.. now it's shiny. The toys were scattered... now they're organised. Results are a calming balm to a discouraged soul aren't they?
My husband and I both have done our share of time in 'social work' fields... and it can get discouraging sometimes. Any work that has people at its core - has it's share of joys and sorrows - like every human heart. You can't really measure your 'success' as a worker by looking for results in people. They succeed, and then they disappoint. I used to ride that roller coaster.. and suffered some burn-out from that trip. I think it often boils down to expectations. In my social work.. did I expect to 'heal.nurture.free.make better' people.. and then have those agendas crash down around me. In my mothering... do I expect to keep a house 'presentable' while neglecting the more important issues of my heart, and this little heart in our charge. I often need to be reminded to re-evaluate why I do what I do... in all spheres of my life. Why do I mother the way I do? Why do I 'wife' the way I do... what motivates my art? What drives my daily routine? For me it's the constant need to see the bigger picture - the 'eternal perspective'. Do the daily worries and messes on the floor stand up to the importance of what really matters in the end?
So what am I rambling on about here? I guess I was just reminded today that there is good to be found in cleaning my home [of course]... but that it should never distract from what really matters. Nurturing the growth in my own heart and others should top the day's 'to-do-list'.
Blessed-fully clean,Mel :o)